I used to think that people who deliberately put the person they like through series of tests to judge their response are fked up, i always thought that you should not put them through tests like these as if you have the right to judge them and choose. I always thought if you liked that person alot why not judge them naturally when you are in a relationship instead of deliberately testing them out before you jump in. But, i was young and naive then.

Yesterdays conversation wth aaron made me think abit. I wouldnt say what stated above is bad, infact it is good not to test them like that, infact its more then good, fucking good. But like what he said, that is right in the ideal world but in this world? It's wrong. We prolly have to put them through tests like these. I was the kinda person who likes, jump in and see where it goes. But come to think of it, i didnt really know what i was getting into. People usually wait till theyre in a relationship then they realise certain things bout their partners they shouldve known before. Shouldnt we already talk about relationship before even entering a one?

Then he told me about what jes asked him which i felt was really true as well. I'm guilty of sometimes using the word love and not mean it, prolly just for the sake of saying or for the sake of ending something with a romantic/sweet touch. But really are we even there yet to use the word love? Infact what aaron said is so true, the word has degraded so much it becomes so casual. But do we really know what is it or is it what we think it is? Even the word like has meaning before now im sure people view it as a word of confusion, unsureness (if there is such a word) and the lack of feeling. But seriously if i went up to you and honestly told you "hey, all this while i actually like/adore you, alot" isnt it already meaningful? i just think we dont know what love is to jump into using it like that. Even like has deep meaning, many people would do ridiculous things for the person they like. Haha infact doesnt like come before love? and im sure majority would agree their relationship was much better before it was an official relationship, prolly the courting period, or the "Like" period :P hahaha

Then he also asked me if i've any idea why most marraige mightve failed. Well the first thing i thought was the lost of feelings but what mightve triggered that? Work. Prolly after marraige life's pretty much a routine and it tires us out that we lost the interest or motivation to do anything special anymore. And prolly cause marraige is like the ultimate goal, then prolly kids, but after that i dont know what's there to aim for and prolly people get bored or they start to loose feelings. i mean for many of us marraige is the ultimate goal for our relationship. Once we reached that point its like WOOOOOOO, then what now? Life goes on, married.

But i miss those times when we were young and naive. Not to mention genuine but as we grow older, genuine turns to gullible.

Oh and the word "i dont know" which im sure many people love to use it. If our partner treats us like shit, the answer is obvious what we should do, break up. But when that person still says " i don't know " the possibility of that person telling you a one sided story is quite high. I mean who admits when they fart. And people will only break when they know there's nothing to loose, but the fact they hold on to something like that, there is confirm something to gain from it.
"He/she treats me like shit"
"Break ah"
"I don't know"
Thats prolly cause he might be telling his friends that too.
Both to blame.
6:19 PM



Got a song to finish, feel like drawing. Gonna draw, draw, draw. Christmas was no different from the past years, boring! Can't wait for sunday, monday and tuesday! I wonder what are we gonna do for new years. Hmmm :/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bhzJO34SCoc
go watch the vid! nice song but i doubt many would hahaha they disabled embedding or i would've.

i need ideas, ideas, ideas
1:31 AM



Manifest my mind, my chest

Flashbacks of past, present, future cries
Echoes of death still the brave men hearts
Spare and not be spared for this ain't a game
Of cat chase mouse more like a bullet to my brain
Trust your life to the hands of a murderer
For the murder can only be triggered by you

Shots stuck in my mind
Imprisoned by my own device
You can run but you can't hide
From these chains that chain you
Hold you to your mind

Fire! Fire! They fall to the ground
One by one under the amber skies
Is this heaven's wrath for those who deserve
Or is this hell preaching to the ground above
This war shall not end if the bullets don't fly
Straight at the ones who deserve to die

Shots stuck in my mind
Imprisoned by my own device
You can run but you can't hide
From these chains that chain you
Hold you to your mind

Why woah why
Does it turn out like this
Is this why we exist?
Why woah why
Can't I..
Can't I forget the..

Shot stuck in my mind
Imprisoned by my own device
You can run but you can't hide
From this chains that chain you
Hold you to your mind

new song up bout war :D

btw i cant believe i watched american pie 7 in public with nad and wani hahahah (Y)
9:38 PM



Fade

Embrace yourself and do not falter
I know it's biting through your skin
It's not that easy but don't surrender
Don't let this day be your defeat
I know you suffer and its unfair
For the last time just stay with me

For tonight keep me warm and keep me safe, I hope
To see tomorrow's light of day
Don't let this be the end
I'll pray to God i'll pray cause inside i know
That for me you're always here
You never fail to erase my fears

Light this candle with that spark
Between you and me right at the start
We were broken from the beginning
Just let it burn right till the end
Let this candle represent my heart
But please dont leave me alone in this dark

For tonight keep me warm and keep me safe, I hope
To see tomorrow's light of day
Don't let this be the end
I'll pray to God i'll pray cause inside i know
That for me you're always here
You never fail to erase my fears


New song wrote! :) neways nad showed me this video i once watched but forgotten and wouldn't wanna forget again. so sad :(


9:50 AM



Awesome song!




Case 39's fked. Boring show besides their realistic effects like the guy dislocating or breaking his jaw after getting punched. haha nonetheless it was a great day :).
I've always wanted to travel to world, to see mountains, see streams, meadows, trees from high up, smell the air in caves, hear the sounds of a waterfall and many more. I wanna backpack and do all these. Anyone wanna come? :D
9:30 PM



I BOUGHT NEW KICKS!
Bought the Nike SB Dunk High "Bloody Gums"



Andddd
Nike SB Blaze "Green Spark"



And also 2 tees shirts haha damn happy la!
Now left with a LED tee, new pair of jeans and a pair of awesome shades :D gotta work more -.-

Neways hitting the movies tmrw at amk hub ( hope i don't get lost since i seldom go there ).
Been tryna make songs these few days but cant think of any, mind's pretty blank. I wanna go to malaysia and shop again B]
8:32 AM