I used to think that people who deliberately put the person they like through series of tests to judge their response are fked up, i always thought that you should not put them through tests like these as if you have the right to judge them and choose. I always thought if you liked that person alot why not judge them naturally when you are in a relationship instead of deliberately testing them out before you jump in. But, i was young and naive then.

Yesterdays conversation wth aaron made me think abit. I wouldnt say what stated above is bad, infact it is good not to test them like that, infact its more then good, fucking good. But like what he said, that is right in the ideal world but in this world? It's wrong. We prolly have to put them through tests like these. I was the kinda person who likes, jump in and see where it goes. But come to think of it, i didnt really know what i was getting into. People usually wait till theyre in a relationship then they realise certain things bout their partners they shouldve known before. Shouldnt we already talk about relationship before even entering a one?

Then he told me about what jes asked him which i felt was really true as well. I'm guilty of sometimes using the word love and not mean it, prolly just for the sake of saying or for the sake of ending something with a romantic/sweet touch. But really are we even there yet to use the word love? Infact what aaron said is so true, the word has degraded so much it becomes so casual. But do we really know what is it or is it what we think it is? Even the word like has meaning before now im sure people view it as a word of confusion, unsureness (if there is such a word) and the lack of feeling. But seriously if i went up to you and honestly told you "hey, all this while i actually like/adore you, alot" isnt it already meaningful? i just think we dont know what love is to jump into using it like that. Even like has deep meaning, many people would do ridiculous things for the person they like. Haha infact doesnt like come before love? and im sure majority would agree their relationship was much better before it was an official relationship, prolly the courting period, or the "Like" period :P hahaha

Then he also asked me if i've any idea why most marraige mightve failed. Well the first thing i thought was the lost of feelings but what mightve triggered that? Work. Prolly after marraige life's pretty much a routine and it tires us out that we lost the interest or motivation to do anything special anymore. And prolly cause marraige is like the ultimate goal, then prolly kids, but after that i dont know what's there to aim for and prolly people get bored or they start to loose feelings. i mean for many of us marraige is the ultimate goal for our relationship. Once we reached that point its like WOOOOOOO, then what now? Life goes on, married.

But i miss those times when we were young and naive. Not to mention genuine but as we grow older, genuine turns to gullible.

Oh and the word "i dont know" which im sure many people love to use it. If our partner treats us like shit, the answer is obvious what we should do, break up. But when that person still says " i don't know " the possibility of that person telling you a one sided story is quite high. I mean who admits when they fart. And people will only break when they know there's nothing to loose, but the fact they hold on to something like that, there is confirm something to gain from it.
"He/she treats me like shit"
"Break ah"
"I don't know"
Thats prolly cause he might be telling his friends that too.
Both to blame.
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